Monotony is killing you

Schedule different kinds of activities and cherish.

1+1 = 3

This is not a mathematical equation. This is an investment equation. Or a systems equation. Two or more things come together and the result is something more than what the two can accomplish together. We know this all.

Every time I sit for doing something at home, I don't do it with a stress free mind. That, I believe, is because of more than one reason. I mean the causes are more than one.

• One is because lot of things are stuck in my psyche which is eating up time and energy.
• Because of my old neural network patterns.
• Because of some fear that I am not doing the right thing at the moment (related to the first one).
• Frequent visits to Mars.
  

She does everything she can

Yes!! She does everything she can. And she expresses her interest to live her life like something. Is it not in my hands to make her dreams true? Shouldn't I be assuring her that she will lead her life like the way she wants to? She has been facing a lot of difficulties since her childhood and even then she has successfully brought us up.

Yes, she has some taboos, yes she is strongly biased towards somethings, so what? I love her for what she is. I love her for whatever she will be.

I will make her dreams true. I will. It is only me who can do that. So, I cannot afford to waste my time. I have to be courageous, I have to be daring and I have to be confident. I need to have these traits in me, then only I can get what I want.

What do you learn from the fact that....

He read only 18 books this year? That slow and steady eventually wins the race.

So, remove those dissatisfactory set of thoughts and feelings from your mind and start reading things. You will be amazed to see the things you have achieved once you start doing this.

18 books in a year means close to 1.5 books in a month. Hmm.

Eshwar

This is Rajni Kanth's character in the film Chandramukhi. It is a very mature character. I can feel that character but not able to express it in words. Let me try to do some.

A logical person; uses reason. An astute observer of things happening around. Master of his subject. Yet a funny, humourous person. Gives importance to critical things and not to the silly things (I like this part). And an intelligent problem solver.

Rant

It seems that I think of something that I want to do that will make me happy, but then I dont have the self discipline to make it happen. That is all there is to it.

Apart from that I don't have a peaceful, healthy and quiet mind that can concentrate on one thing at a time. This wastes a lot of my bandwidth.

I should also collect all the wisdom given by others at one place. Like Arindam said, Keep all your eggs in one basket and watch the basket. It is very true.

Another thing is that I need to get things done. Irrespective of what my habituated mind says to me, I need to get things done. That alone makes me happy. That alone can get me forward.

You do what you must

I always keep trying to be somebody else, but if I think about it deeply, I realize that it is not possible. It is not possible to be somebody else. The mind with its neural network configurations - is US. It is not somebody else. You can only simulate/emulate somebody else upto some extent - uttering their statements, making their body movements, thinking about them day long etc. Apart from such wasteful moments, one cannot really be somebody else.

Self-consciousness is something that will make you or push you into doing somethings that you are not supposed to do if you were not conscious. I think, I now kind of understand this nugget. - you do what you must. That alone will make you happy. Other things cannot make you happy. Stop being somebody else and be yourself. Stop being afraid of being yourself. Be your friend, like yourself and grow yourself. Your life will be much much stress free.

Need to get priorities right

I need to get my priorities right. Nothing will happen if I stop making coffee at home.

I need to fill my jar with stones before filling it with pebbles or sand or water. I can see how the GTG system helps me in getting myself concentrate on filling with pebbles while leaving the rest of the things. This is very important. I realize it. Because of a lot of stress, I get tired very quickly. I need to get the stress out of my mind. Then only I can concentrate on other things.

So, from tomorrow onwards I will be starting out with what should I be doing in getting the stress out of my mind. I need to have proper systems in place for these things to work.

I want to liberate

I want to liberate from a lot of things that hold me back from realizing my full potential. I want to liberate myself from girls. I want to liberate myself from emotional fatigue. I want to liberate myself from all those stupid comparisons with others. I want to liberate myself from immature childish things (many) on which I waste time a lot. I want to liberate myself from hypocricy. I want to liberate myself from mediocrity. I want to liberate myself from depression. I want to liberate myself from fear. I want to get liberated. How? How do I get liberated? How do I become free of all these things?

I believe liberation comes from:

• Getting things done. That will liberate mind from a lot of things that have been hiding ever since.
  
• Good meditation. It will decrease the emotional fatigue to some extent.
  
• Reading fictional work. It will improve the concentration skills as well as not allow one to diverge to futile things.
  
• Exercise. It will supply more oxygen to the brain and let it work and think effectively, thus preventing one self from falling into the trap of melancholy.
• A TON of positive thinking in life.
• Socializing with people and opening up yourself with an open mind.

Having said all that, it seems a bit difficult to overcome history and move ahead. More practice and concentration needs to be put into this.

Two problems I found today

in me are:

• Attention syndrome
• If I take up something for doing, then I don't seem to be thinking well about it before committing it. If I end up aborting that job, it feels like hell sometimes.

Attention syndrome is too much in me. I have to meditate deeply from now-onwards to have focusing power. Having said that, I know that :

• I can do anything
• I need to be slow and do one thing at a time.
• Need to have some sense of priority.